Wednesday, August 31, 2011

I believe

I wrote a song a couple of years ago soon after going through a divorce. Starting life over when your almost 40 with two teenage daughters to raise and my credit shot to pieces was not a comforting scenario. Especially considering this was my second failed marriage. I felt like I had wasted 20 years of my life on two men that couldn’t control their “urges”.  I always thought I’d be married for life to one person but unfortunately it didn’t turn out that way. So instead of drowning in all the garbage, I decided to focus on all the blessings that have been graciously given to me.
First of all, I realized that the last 20 years were not wasted years at all. I have grown from a fragile young girl into a mature confidant woman and learned so many irreplaceable, life lessons during that time. I also have two of the most beautiful daughters a woman could ever ask for. And I don’t just mean outer beauty. Both my girls have a heart of gold and love the Lord. From the time I was a little girl, all I ever wanted to be was a mommy and I wanted two girls. Well God definitely fulfilled that desire.
Sometimes in a negative situation, it’s hard to shift into a positive attitude. It takes plenty of will power, the grace of God and a lot of focus.(2 Cor. 10 vs. 5) If you dwell on the circumstances around you, you’ll easily sink into a dark place. I learned that the facts about a situation aren’t necessarily the truth.For instance, the fact was that I was rejected, betrayed etc. etc. but the truth is (from a spiritual perspective) that He (The Lord) will never abandon or forsake me, He loves and cares for me, and that I am His Beloved. When you get a hold of that, it WILL change your perspective. I literally had to speak the Word of God (truth) over and over to change my mindset. It worked and the peace of God then ruled over my spirit and gave me rest. I really don’t know how I could have coped with the pain without my Father in heaven. No one is immune to pain, but with God there is a definite sense of peace and hope.
There were several songs birthed during that time of disaster - which is a good thing. Creativity flows best when emotions are high. So now that you know a piece of my story, maybe you’ll understand the inspiration for some of my songs. The song that I mentioned in the beginning goes a little something like this –
I Believe    (Dorinda Walters)
Here I go again on my own
Walking down this road all alone
And even though I may not know
Or understand this place
I wake up with a smile on my face
Cause I believe in love
And I believe in miracles
And I believe that one day I’ll see
Some one here smiling back at me
Yes I believe – I believe
Waking up from this dream
Holding on for things unseen
Every day I hope and pray
And wake up to the sun
Get ready for my life it’s just begun
Cause I believe in love
And I believe in miracles
And I believe that one day I’ll see
Some one here smiling back at me
Yes I believe – Yes I believe
I believe in love and miracles (repeat)
I believe in love I believe in love I believe in love (repeat)
CHORUS looped with bridge
Sometimes I just can’t conceive
All this mess that’s happened to me
Like what we had was good and bad
I think about what might have been
But this time I’m awake
My eyes are WIDE OPEN
And I believe in love
And I believe in miracles
Yes I believe that one day I’ll see
Some one here smiling back at me
Yes I believe Yes I believe

Friday, August 5, 2011

Up and Running

I'm so excited. I finally have got my music up and going online and available for sale!!! Thanks so much for all the help from my awesome web coach, Mark Hansen. This is definitely one of those big moments and a huge step in my "moving forward" zone. Yippee. Here is a link to my first online song.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Aaaahhhhh.... I'm so frustrated. I've been trying to upload some of my songs so that I can begin to share them and I've been at it for hours with out getting anywhere. I've got to change all the formats which I have no idea on how to do that - and everything I try is miserably failing. Sometimes, I HATE computers. God did not bless me with a technical brain. Any computer geniuses out there? My computer (brain)  is about to crash! That's probably what I should do. Good night and hopefully I'll wake up with with some bright ideas.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Crop Circles

So apparently the latest explanation for crop circles is that Wallabies are getting stoned on poppies and running in circles creating "crop circles" . Wow that is the lamest and silliest one I've heard yet. There must be some amazing and creative wallabies out there. I wonder if someone is secretly paying them to make these incredible crop circles??? Hmmmm....
Gotta love our news media. That's all I'm saying.